Un-comfort Zones

Wow, what a week. For the past 6 months I've been dealing with the breakdown of my marriage, and separation from my husband, Rick. Seems like just when I think I'm okay and getting on with things, something comes up that shows me how much farther I have to go until I'm an official member of the "Got It Together" club.

My oldest step-son (Eric) graduated from high school on Monday. I can hardly believe that it's been 13 years since he first came in to my life and I was watching him start kindergarten. Now I have two sons of my own, one who just graduated kindergarten and one who will start in the fall.

Watching him graduate was wonderful. Watching him graduate with Rick, and Stacey (Eric's mom) was another thing all together. It was a very emotional day for me. A day of celebrating Eric's acheivements and the next chapter of his life, and a day of realization for me of all that I have been through with Rick, and the beginning of a new chapter in my life. An unwritten chapter that scares me. An unfamiliar place.

What has really been coming up for me during this week is the term "comfort zone." A good friend and fantastic blogger, Andrea Schroeder, of abccreativity.com wrote her blog this week about working through the discomfort of outgrowing a comfort zone. Another good friend I talked to on the phone today brought up comfort zones and how tough it can be for us to leave them, no matter how aware we are of how much they no longer serve us. And this is where I am. Stuck in a comfort zone that definitely is no longer serving me - but too scared to let...it...go. At this point I think "un-comfort" zone is much more accurate description of where I am.

And so I think right now, the best thing I can do is feel my way through this. Feel the fear, the sadness, the grieving. Because I know that at the other end is the relief, the joy, the courage, and the awareness....that I am right where I need to be, that all is happening for the highest and best of all concerned. Doesn't it always turn out that way? Right while you're in the middle of "it" you cannot possibly fathom how this can turn out well, and in the end you are so grateful that things turned out the way they did because they are soooooo much better? I know this as the truth in my life. I know that my next chapter will be better than ever.

And so it is!