Discovering Me

Un-comfort Zones

2010-06-25T18:45:00.000-07:00

Wow, what a week. For the past 6 months I've been dealing with the breakdown of my marriage, and separation from my husband, Rick. Seems like just when I think I'm okay and getting on with things, something comes up that shows me how much farther I have to go until I'm an official member of the "Got It Together" club.

My oldest step-son (Eric) graduated from high school on Monday. I can hardly believe that it's been 13 years since he first came in to my life and I was watching him start kindergarten. Now I have two sons of my own, one who just graduated kindergarten and one who will start in the fall.

Watching him graduate was wonderful. Watching him graduate with Rick, and Stacey (Eric's mom) was another thing all together. It was a very emotional day for me. A day of celebrating Eric's acheivements and the next chapter of his life, and a day of realization for me of all that I have been through with Rick, and the beginning of a new chapter in my life. An unwritten chapter that scares me. An unfamiliar place.

What has really been coming up for me during this week is the term "comfort zone." A good friend and fantastic blogger, Andrea Schroeder, of abccreativity.com wrote her blog this week about working through the discomfort of outgrowing a comfort zone. Another good friend I talked to on the phone today brought up comfort zones and how tough it can be for us to leave them, no matter how aware we are of how much they no longer serve us. And this is where I am. Stuck in a comfort zone that definitely is no longer serving me - but too scared to let...it...go. At this point I think "un-comfort" zone is much more accurate description of where I am.

And so I think right now, the best thing I can do is feel my way through this. Feel the fear, the sadness, the grieving. Because I know that at the other end is the relief, the joy, the courage, and the awareness....that I am right where I need to be, that all is happening for the highest and best of all concerned. Doesn't it always turn out that way? Right while you're in the middle of "it" you cannot possibly fathom how this can turn out well, and in the end you are so grateful that things turned out the way they did because they are soooooo much better? I know this as the truth in my life. I know that my next chapter will be better than ever.

And so it is!

Screwed....

2010-06-19T18:00:00.000-07:00

Okay. Kids are gone, I've got a glass of wine and nothing to disturb me. Dare I try my hand at....blogging? This is something I've thought about many times and then rethought myself out of. Do I have to blog? What do I blog about? Who the heck wants to read another stranger's blog about her quest to live an inspired life? I have no formal education, no specialized training, no fabulous house in the hills with a butler or a ridiculous amount of shoes (okay that I may have, depending on what number constitutes ridiculous in your books). I do however, have a desire to do all I can with what I have, in the time I have, in the place I am. And so here I am.

I have been told that, "everyone's first blog post is bad." Now if you are me, that is a direct challenge to write the best first blog posting EVER. Am I doing that right now - probably not. I figure if it is a fact that all first posts are bad, then I was screwed before I even wrote "okay" up at the top. And if it's going to be bad, it might as well be really bad. So now I'm done. First worst blog post done. Nothing exciting, inspiring, or motivating. But now you can expect redemption, perfection, inspiration, and a whole lot of other words that end in "tion" from this day forward. Or at least you can look forward to my gradual improvement as you join me on my journey.

Over and out.

Trish

Making it Happen in 2010!

2010-02-05T08:55:00.001-08:00

I attended a workshop this Jaunuary called "Making it Happen in 2010: Creating a Year of Abundance, Healing and Possiblity" , hosted by Andrea Schroeder of ABCcreativity.com.
This workshop allowed me to dream big and be supported in my dreams. You can see the photos of my dream map at:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/trishdreams/4304261739/in/set-72157623159629675/

Part of the workshop includes ongoing support and encouragement throughout the year, and weekly assignments (all voluntary). One of the assignments was to make our BIG DREAMS LIST - a list of 100 (or more) things that we wish to be, do, and/or have in our life. I have started my list and would like to share it here. There is power in putting your dreams out there for others to see. This list is ongoing and will (happily) never be done, as it will always grow and expand! Enjoy - and may it inspire you to dream big!

Big Dreams list -January 2010

1. love and appreciate myself.
2. I have the courage to let go of what is no longer serving me
3. I create an income of $60 000 or even better while continuing to be a full-time mom.
4. I am in a healthy, loving, relationship with a supportive and loving partner.
5. I am taking greater risks and enjoying greater rewards.
6. I am having fun every day.
7. I feel independent, not co-dependent.
8. I am vacationing in warm climates during cold months, with my family.
9. I feel confident just as I am.
10. I am leading and facilitating others to live their dreams,
11. I will no longer settle for anything less than what I want and deserve.
12. I am going on a hywire zipline adventure.
13. I am enjoying a weekend trip with great friends.
14. I am enjoying financial abundance beyond my needs.
15. I am taking great care of my body, inside and out.
16. I am enjoying leisure time for myself daily.
17. I am living my life to the fullest that I know how.
18. I am enjoying bubble baths with a glass of wine, weekly.
19. I am a great mom.
20. I am forgiving myself and moving on.
21. I am discovering my amazing talents and sharing them with others.
22. I am spending time in Hawaii.
23. I am learning to play the piano again.
24. I am singing at karaoke.
25. I am making wise decision with my abundance of money.
26. I am teaching yoga.
27. I am public speaking and enjoying it.
28. I am the proud owner of a successful business that I am passionate about.
29. I remember to play every day.
30. I am eating all organic foods.
31. I am meditating daily.
32. I am a good friend.
33. I am jogging daily.
34. I am a passion test facilitator.
35. I am in love with life!!!
36. I am a winner on the Amazing Race.
37. I am furnishing my living room with beautiful furniture and accessories.
38. I am taking beautiful photographs with my new high quality digital SLR camera.
39. I am enjoying monthly trips to the spa.
40. I am enjoying time with family and friends in my fully finished basement.
41. I am growng a vegetable garden.
42. I am enjoying weekly dates with my partner.
43. I am a millionaire!
44. I am travelling across Canada, with my family, in a luxury RV.
45. I am learning to paint.
46. I am getting paid generously for having fun!
47. I am learning to surf.
48. I am learning to snowboard.
49. I own a quad for myself and mini-quads for Ty and Peyton.
50. I am the host of a positive, new thought talk show.
51. I am learning to play the guitar.
52. I am investing money in a high-interest savings account for Ty and Peyton every month.
53. I am enjoying multiple streams of income.
54. I am finding new ways to be creative, and active with my kids.
55. I am journaling daily.
56. I am taking inspired action towards my dreams.
57. I am attending a Shiva Rea yoga retreat in India or Greece in 2011.
58. I am vacationing in Jamaica.
59. I own a cottage by the lake.
60. I am learning how to cook new vegetarian meals, with new ingredients.
61. I am doing spiritual readings at my spiritual Centre.